Too strong a knowledge Not that I had a revelation like some fucking luny I just know I have come to know it all the futility the evil the wickedness the ways of this world the hopelessness I admit the beauty of the cowslips on my lawn but still the ugliness the deceit the murders the torture the arrogance the corruption I discovered it not one night but during ten thousand nights and days why enter this world just to suffer through it till the end why try to improve it charity? politics? surely not science? OK we're good we're really good and some people get a decent meal some get healed some get their remedies with some it even works while their rulers slowly descend into their hot tubs once again opening their golden faucets once again trying to put everyone out of their misery and into it at the same time first things first now I know it I have come to know it all the futility the evil the wickedness the ways of this world the hopelessness and the worst thing well maybe not the worst thing but still pretty damn bad is that I must keep it all to myself maybe everyone knows it maybe they all figured it out by themselves separately at one time or another even before I did maybe and maybe they're as good at silence as I am but still I must keep it to myself I wouldn't like to crack up a party I wouldn't like to say it out loud to tell my mother my friends my neighbors I couldn't bear to be the guilty one of bringing on the dire message I know it would cause even more harm me telling it all wouldn't it drown cities? wouldn't it bury villages? wouldn't it crash planes? wouldn't it flood rivers? and melt the Antarctic? I think it would silence the birds it would scare cats it would keep moles digging deeper and deeper and flood rivers and drown cities it would quake the earth and kill neighbors and flood moles and men [2005-2006]


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